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Sabah & Football

2011-12-12T22:21:00.000+08:00

I am not fond of football. I rarely watch football. But, today is a special occasion. Something triggered me to write something about football especially since Malaysia won the gold medal at the recent SEA Games against Indonesia (actually, I intend to write this a long time ago, but I was caught up with to many commitments).

But first, I am so late to say, but I am going to say it anyways. Congratulations to the Malaysian football team. You have made Malaysia proud.

Source: www.junaidiey.com

Especially to Ong Kim Swee as well.

Source: rimauxi.wordpress.com

But, in spite of all the cheering there are some people who are not so happy with the result. Why? Well, apparently, there aren't any Sabahan or Sarawakian players in the squad. That's why they are not happy with it. Just take a look at this:

'I'm not proud to the fact that Malaysia won gold medal for football at the SEA Games. Furthermore, I am disappointed that they won. Because, there are no Sabahan players'.

'So called Harimau Malaya. BN will surely fall in the next GE. Sabah! Sarawak! Vote for change! Live PKR!'

'My brother said, he is not proud with the Malaysian team because there aren't any players from Borneo. Guess what? I agree to that as well. It is so obvious that Sabah and Sarawak are neglected.'

I am not here to condemn these people who are unhappy about the Malaysian team. They are entitled to their own opinions.

I am not putting my back against Sabah just because I support the Malaysian team. And as a Sabahan, I do realize that there are no Sabahan players in the team.

Must there be all players from all states then only a Malaysian team, would be a Malaysian team?

See Kok Luen is from FT Kuala Lumpur, why didn't FT Labuan complain?

One more thing, do we need to politicize football?

'So called Harimau Malaya. BN will surely fall in the next GE. Sabah! Sarawak! Vote for change! Live PKR!

Does Malaysian football have anything to do with politics? Or politics having to do with football? I don't want to go any further on the football-politics relationship. But readers, if you do have any information about this, do let me know.

For me, it doesn't matter where the player comes from, Sabah, Sarawak, Kedah or maybe even Kelantan.

What matters is ...

Skills & Talents

Which leads us to another issue, where there many talented Sabahan players. Why aren't they in the squad? For me, this is what us Sabahans need to discuss about instead of complaining and whining that you're disappointed with the Malaysian team just because there are no Sabahan players. Discuss? Discuss what things? Discuss this:

What does Sabahan players lack?

What can be done to polish these players?

Are there any criterias or standards that Sabahan needs to fulfill in order to get into the national team?

Have Sabahan players reach that standards?

Are the Sabahan players ready to be in the national team?

And so on. So let's just be positive. I asked a question on twitter, which only a few answered because it was really really late at night. It goes like this:

Are you disappointed that there are no Sabahan players in the national team?

This is my favorite answer:

So once again, be positive people. Don't ever think Sabahan players are not good enough to play in the national squad. Don't ever think that Sabah and Sarawak as well, is neglected. And if you are concern about Sabahan football, stop complaining and stop condemning and do something. Support!

Once again I emphasize, I am not so familiar with football. This is just my opinion. I apologize if there's any faults and do correct me if I'm wrong. Here's another thought.

Would the name 'Harimau Malaya' bother you, if there are Sabahan players in the national team?

Useful link:

Sabahawks

Thanks for reading!

This Pig is Going to Save My Life

2011-11-27T00:18:00.000+08:00

Why?

It keeps my money. You know what I mean.

I love you, Pig.

Kasino by Saifullizan Tahir

2011-08-25T01:09:00.000+08:00

I bought this book like a long time ago at Kinokuniya and only now I got a chance to read it. Bukan apa. It’s just that, I’ve got so many things to do and there’s so many books in line for me to read. Bayangkan, my current book count, those books I haven’t read that is, I think around ten. Entahlah. Malas I want to count.

So back to the topic, for those of you who haven’t read the book, or maybe perhaps, lansung tak tahu dan tak pernah nak ambil tahu, Kasino is about….

‘Mohd Narcissus Yussof ialah seorang usahawan Bumiputera yang pantang dicabar. Dia berkebolehan, kacak serta selesa dengan gaya hidup yang mewah dan hedonis. Tetapi dirinya kini tersepit.

Apabila negeri di mana dia berniaga diambil alih oleh Pakatan Rakyat, sumber kewangannya tergugat. Lebih parah, dia kini terhutang RM3.8 juta kepada kerajaan negeri. Dia ada hanya 2 minggu untuk melangsaikannya atau padah, dihadapkan ke badan pencegah rasuah.

Mohd Narcissus harus beradu dengan masa untuk menyelamatkan reputasi. Antara ikhtiarnya ialah dengan mencuba nasib di gelanggang judi antarabangsa. Nasib dunianya yang selama ini bergantung kepada tampuk kuasa politik semakin menghimpit. Di medan KASINO sebegini, kemuliaan hanyalah dari kemenangan.’ – Synopsis taken from the novel’s Facebook page : Kasino sebuah novel Saifullizan Tahir

What I thought of this novel? Well, it’s definitely a good read. I give it 7.5 out of 10.

The elaborate details like putting on clothes by designer labels can also put this book as a style guide. Perhapslah. Bayangkan, nak pakai boxers pun nak bagitahu jenama apa.

The character himself is very inspirational indeed. Let’s out aside those drinking and and sex. As the saying goes, buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih. Narcissus is very resourceful, confident, smart and knows his way around things/people. All these qualities can be adapted into our everyday lives.

The name of the character speaks for itself. I Google-d Narcissus because I think it’s weird. It sounds like some sort of cheese. And according to my findings, it’s far more than cheese!

‘Narcissus or Narkissos (Greek: Νάρκισσος), possibly derived from ναρκη (narke) meaning "sleep, numbness," in Greek mythology was a hunter from the territory of Thespiae in Boeotia who was renowned for his beauty. He was exceptionally proud, in that he disdained those who loved him. Nemesis saw this and attracted Narcissus to a pool where he saw his own reflection in the waters and fell in love with it, not realizing it was merely an image. Unable to leave the beauty of his reflection, Narcissus died’ – Wikipedia.

But in this novel, he did not die. Almost but he survived.

Somehow, I can relate to him as well. I see myself in him, minus the money, his company, cars and designer label wardrobe collections. Narcissus at times was cocky. So am I. I am cocky at times. Sometimes cockiness (that sounds weird) is just what you need to survive. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not always cocky. Haha. I can be the nicest person you’ll ever know (mata pandang ke atas, tangan di dada). But yeah, I am nice. Haha.

There are some phrases or lines that I like from this book novel such as:

‘... Semenjak dari hari itu juga aku kurang percaya dengan ustazah – ustazah, ustaz – ustaz, tok guru – tok guru, malahan semua orang yang tahu tentang agama. Bila mereka tidak dapat jawab, mereka marah kita balik. Salahkan kita, kononnya nak ikut Yahudi. Bodoh…’ – second paragraph, page 79.

Some religious scholars, no matter what religion, think they know so much. When they know so much, they tend to walk to the wrong path. Enoughlah. Malas nak cerita pasal agama. It’s heavy.

‘…turun padang for old time’s sake. Ini buat aku sedikit gembira, aku suka tengok kawan – kawan aku semakin berjaya. Bukan apa taklah kekok nanti bila ajak minum atau apa. Kalau tak, terasa semacam pula bila ajak kawan yang kurang kemampuan…’ – second paragraph, page 101.

It’s so nice to hear or see your friend is doing well. Simple news of success could carve on your face. That’s what I always experience when some of my friends have succeeded in achieving their goals.

‘…semua orang yang pandai macam aku patut dapat pinjaman pelajaran ke luar negeri, tak kiralah dari kaum apapun. Kita perlu merayakan orang – orang yang pandai di dunia ini…’ fourth paragraph, page 129.

Yes, smart people should be acknowledged. Smart people should be celebrated. Smart people should be appreciated. Tak kiralah agama apa pun, bangsa apa pun, these smart people should be recognize and given more opportunity because their smart asses can contribute to the country.

The only downside I get when I read this book is, it’s doesn’t have that boom – boom pow. What I’m trying to say is, the climax didn’t strike me like a lightning bolt. You get what I mean? The flow of the story is bersahaja which was nice but the climax didn’t leave me with awe. I think it’s because of Narcissus always gets things in his way that made the story bersahaja. There’s not enough challenge or obstacles give to the main character. There were some like when his friends tak dapat tolong nak cari duit but that was it. There isn’t an obstacle or challenge that brought the character down so hard. Narcissus had to hit rock bottom so hard, then only he will learn his lesson and strive to complete the challenge and solve his problems. But he didn’t. Let’s just say, Narcissus is a very lucky guy.

In a nutshell, Kasino by Saifullizan Tahir is a great read. Its urban language makes it easier for us readers to relate to the story. By the way the story is written, we can visualize the story in our heads from the get go to the end just like a movie.

Those of you who haven’t read this book, go and get it!

Someone Like You - Part 4

2011-07-21T09:26:00.002+08:00

"Hi," Blake patted Zack. He turned around.

"Don't you know how hard it is to find you? Almost every guy here wears the same thing. You should have left me your number," Blake found him standing in front the water fountain at the entrance of the mall.

"Yeah. Sorry about that. I guess I was so eager to meet up with you."

"Right," she sounded sarcastic. "Come on on. You must be hungry," they walk to Zack's favorite Western restaurant. Blake was surprised when Zack suddenly holds her hand. In stead of letting it go, she just let him. It was kinda naughty but she like it.

Their order came and started to eat. Blake couldn't get her eyes of Zack. He wasn't that good looking but easy to look at. There's these unexplainable qualities on Zack that made him somehow, irresistible. He had the charm. That's what she thought. The sight of Zack eating his pasta was also adorable. They way he eats it, its very boyish. She couldn't help but notice the ring on his finger as well.

"So why did you go out with me?," Blake's day dreaming was snapped by his question.

"You asked me out. Remember?," she didn't like the question. She felt slightly uncomfortable.

"That's not what I mean."

She put down her fork and knife, leaned back, took her napkin and wipe her lips.

"I still love my boyfriend. But I'm bored. We've been together so long,"

"So you just to experience something else," she didn't really understand what he meant but, she does need a new experience. A change of routine. A routine with Adam.

"Yeah. That's exactly it," agreeing to Zack's words. It was silent once again. She felt pretty awkward. She had to start a conversation.

"Are you cheating on your wife?," she referred to the ring on Zack's finger.

"Who says I have a wife?," Zack frowned.

She pointed her finger to Zack's ring "That ring on your finger."

"I'm engaged," Blake raised her eyebrow when she heard that.

"You never told me,"

"You never asked," he gave a naughty smile and continued to eat his lunch.

She smiled as well. Behind that smiled she hid her worries. What if she will be a problem between Zack and his fiancee. Whoever she might me. She asked the same question as what Zack asked her earlier.

"So, why did you ask me out?,"

"I need a break. From Catherine. From everything. The wedding plans is really getting on to me,"

In her mind was, 'what have I got into?'

"Oh. Okay. So when's the wedding?,"

"In three weeks,"

"And now you go out with me and telling me all this?,"

"Hey, you're bored, and I need a break. Basically we both need a break. It's a perfect example of mutualism." Blake didn't reply his statement. Zack reaches out his hand hand holds Blake's. Caressing her hands smoothly.

"Don't worry. It's going to be fun,"

She's in turmoil inside but she was also eager. At last she said:

"We will."

Someone Like You - Part 3

2011-07-19T01:11:00.003+08:00

Blake is 25 years old. She graduated three years ago from a local university and has a degree in business. She's very beautiful like those girls you see on the magazine covers. Her long jet black hair always caught attention.

Adam's attention. She had been with Adam since high school. Adam was a senior older and they have dated ever since. For ten years of being together they still haven't take their relationship to the next level. They decided it's better to wait. But that waiting left Blake unsure whether her relationship with Adam would somehow work. She always wondered about that but never shared with Adam.

Now, she feels that she wants to spice things up. She wants to take a break from Adam. Hence, comes Zack Sparks. Whom she met online for almost a week and now she will meet him face to face. She felt guilty about lying to Adam. She convinced herself that meeting up with Zack would do good for her relationship with Adam and it would remind her of what she and Adam used to be and that would strengthen their relations.

But she was wrong.

Someone Like You - Part 2

2011-07-17T00:26:00.001+08:00

"You seem to be on that thing a lot these past few days"

It was 8.00 am. Adam Michael saw Blake enthusiastically types her messages on Facebook on her laptop in the dining room. She set up an account a few months back but only now she started to be active on cyber space. She didn't bother much about social networking.

"Well yeah. My old friends reconnected through Facebook and it's kinda amazing to see everybody grew up. And it's kinda addictive"

"Really?" Adam pulled out a chair and sat beside her but wasn't interested in looking to the laptop's screen. Instead, he poured a cup of coffee for himself.

"Maybe you should try it" she gave a suggestion to Adam.

"I prefer reading" Adam wasn't interested at all in social networking. He works as a freelance writer and he has to do a lot of reading. Reading to him wasn't just a hobby. It became a habit. And soon, he'll be publishing his first novel.

"Yes you do" Blake smiled. She holds Adam's hand and he replied the gesture, looking into her eyes, smiling. He grabbed the newspaper and his cup of coffee and proceeded to the couch.

Suddenly, an instant message was delivered to Blake.

"Hey, there. What's up?"

"Hi, Zack. Nothing. Just sitting around" she didn't want to give details on what she's planning to do that day but the truth is, she didn't know what to do at all. Her office work is all done.

"On a beautiful Saturday like this? Come on. Someone like you should go out and enjoy"

"Well someone like you should know that I have a boyfriend"

"Hahaha! Come one. It couldn't be that bad"

"I don't know" she wasn't sure but deep inside she knows she wants it.

"I'll take it a a yes. Meet you up at Pavilion at 12. I'm wearing a blue long sleeved shirt and jeans. See you there"

Before she could reply. Zack went offline. She's still not sure about Zack's invitation. She turned her head towards Adam and turned back staring at the screen. She logged out and turned off her laptop.

"Adam, I just remembered, my girlfriends asked me out today. I'm leaving before twelve. Is that okay?"

Adam's eyes are still on the newspaper.

"You go ahead and have fun"

"Dinner still on tonight?"

Adam put down the newspaper and looked at Blake."Yes, I'll order Chinese"

"Perfect" Blake smiled.

She went up to the bedroom to get ready.

Someone Like You - Part 1

2011-07-16T22:34:00.001+08:00

"I don't know Lexie. I guess I'm just bored. We've been together for such a log time"

That's Blake Madison, speaking her heart out to her best friend, Lexie Williams about her long time boyfriend, Adam. It was a fine Thursday morning. They're sipping their coffee at Starbucks near Blake's office.

"Do you still love him?" Lexie asked. Sipping her coffee. She put down her cup and took a bite of the tuna finger sandwich.

"Lexie, of course I do. I just need, you know, a change of environment or something" she's trying to convince Lexie.

"Well, you sound like you don't love him"

Blake looked Lexie in the eye. She didn't reply. In fact, she didn't know what to say, at all.

Ashley

2011-07-16T02:03:00.001+08:00

INT/SCENE 1/Living room

ASHLEY, a girl in her twenties is reading her magazines in her living room. Enjoying her time while listening to a tune on the radio. She's still beautiful and still single, she had a boyfriend but broke up because of her boyfriend had to marry someone else. While she was browsing through her magazine, she noticed someone is unlocking her door. She stood up and checks to see who it was. She stood behind the door. The door opened.

ASHLEY

What are you doing here?

It was LEX. ASHLEY's previous boyfriend the one whom she shared her apartment with. He was tall, young and handsome for a married guy.

LEX

ASHLEY, I came to get my stuff.

ASHLEY

You're late LEX, I already threw them away.

LEX looked passed ASHLEY and saw his belongings on the cabinet.

LEX

Really huh?

He pushed ASHLEY aside and went to grab his stuff.

LEX

Then, what's this? Isn't this my stuff? My books?

ASHLEY was astonished. She did not see this situation coming. She never thought that she would face this situation.

ASHLEY

I.. urrm.. Well, you're the one who left it here.

LEX

Then why did you kept them?

ASHLEY did not know how to answer LEX's question. She stared at him and walk towards her sofa and sat with her hands crossed. LEX went and stood in front of ASHLEY.

LEX

Tell me why.

ASHLEY

(looking at LEX)

I guess, I kept them, just in case you come back.

LEX

(rubbing his forehead with his left hand while his right hand is on his waist)

Oh, come on ASHLEY. Not again. We had this conversation.

ASHLEY

(standing up and move a bit further from LEX)

And I just can't over it. You left me and marry someone else. I loved you but you left me hanging.

LEX

(moves closer to AHSLEY)

You know I had to. I didn't have any choice. I had to marry Theresa.

ASHLEY

(turns around)

Oh. Theresa.

LEX went speechless. He didn't know what else to say. He sat down on the couch. ASHLEY still standing.LEX put on a blank stare until he saw his mug on the table and grabbed it.

LEX

(caressing the mug and made a smile)

I see you still keep my mug eyy.

ASHLEY sat beside LEX but sat a bit further.

ASHLEY

Yeah. I never see the point of throwing it away.

LEX

You remembered the time when we shared ice cream in this mug?

ASHLEY

(smiling)

No we didn't.

LEX

Oh yes we did.

ASHLEY

No we didn't. Haha. You finished the whole thing before I got to eat it.

They both laughed.

LEX

Yeah. Hey, hey. How about the time when I took you on a boat ride at the park and I accidentally fell into the river?

ASHLEY laughed so hard. LEX just watched her, smiling and giggled.

ASHLEY

Of course! Who could forget that. Everybody at the park was laughing.

They both laughed and it settled.

ASHLEY

LEX, why are you doing this?

The atmosphere became serious.

LEX

Do what?

ASHLEY

Well, you come here saying you want to grab you stuff and now this? All the reminiscing about the good all days. Don't you realize you just made this even harder for me?

LEX

I. I. I'm sorry.

ASHLEY

I'm tired of hearing that word LEX. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. You write and say sorry. You call and say sorry. What the heck LEX? What the heck.

LEX

Well, what do you want me to say? What was I suppose to do. I had to marry her.

ASHLEY stood up.

ASHLEY

I don't know LEX. I don't know. I always thought the we could somehow, make it work, after all that happened.

LEX

If it makes it any better for you, I do want to be with you. I do wish we could make it out. I, I still have feelings for you.

ASHLEY turns around to face LEX.

ASHLEY

Oh, LEX, cut it out.

LEX

(standing up)

ASHLEY, hear me out.

ASHLEY

LEX, whatever you say, there's nothing that could be done.

LEX

So, what now.

ASHLEY

You go grab your stuff and don't ever come back again.

LEX

(shaking his head left to right)

ASHLEY, you don't mean it.

ASHLEY

As a matter of fact, I do.

LEX

(puppy eyes)

Could we just maybe be friends?

ASHLEY

(smiling)

That would be even harder for us.

LEX

This is goodbye then huh?

ASHLEY

Yes, it is.

LEX

Not even farewell sex?

ASHLEY

(giggles)

No, LEX, no farefell sex.

LEX

Well, let me grab my stuff then.

LEX grabbed his stuff and went to the door. ASHLEY walked him to the door.

ASHLEY

Can I keep that mug?

LEX

(gives mug to ASHLEY)

Oh, sure. Here you go. Smile when you think of me.

ASHLEY

I will.

LEX gets out of the apartment.

ASHLEY

LEX! My keys.

LEX

Almost forgot about that.

LEX gave the keys. They smiled.

LEX

I love you ASHLEY.

ASHLEY

I love you to, LEX.

ASHLEY closes the door and smiled. The mug and the key are still in her hands. She walked to her couched and still smiling.

I Had Better Sex

2011-07-09T01:40:00.002+08:00

It was late at night at Claire's place. Harold and Claire live together since they were dating. They had just got home from a diner. You might thought after a good meal, these two would go home cuddling each other, kissing in the middle of a sentence and fuck. But that didn't happen. They were fighting all the way from the lobby, in the elevator and even offended and elderly woman by saying she's a fat old bitch with smelly armpits and makes bad cookies.

What they we're fighting about, well, almost everything came up. Like who would pay the bills for this month, when will Harold visit Claire's parents and all the silly things raised tension between them. They took off their coats lay them on the floor.

"You just nag and nag and nag that's all you ever do. You never do anything. I'm the one who does stuff around here" Claire complained with disgust showing of her face.

While pointing fingers on Claire, Harold began to speak "Oh really? Well who fed you all this time? I did! What did you ever do for me with your money? Nothing! You just eat from my money. Might as well you eat the crap out of my money".

"Don't you point your finger at me you wanker" Claire didn't know what else to bring up so she decided to be sarcastic.

"Me? Wanker? Well you have unbalance boobs. Big on the right side, ten times smaller on the other?" Harold became even more sarcastic.

She snorted. Looked down on her boobs for a second. Disbelief. She looked back to Harold. "You. You. Well sex with you was bad. In fact very bad. You jerk off way too soon and you know what? I had better sex with a vibrator than I had with you!" Claire told the truth but she crossed the line. She saw the look on Harold's face. He was shocked. He didn't know what to say. He went to get his coat and put it on.

"Harold" Claire's voice softened down. "Harold I'm sorry I didn't mean it" She felt very guilty.

"No. You do mean it. I... I... I think it's best for us not to see each other at the moment" He looked straight to Claire.

"Harold, please don't go. I love you" Claire tried to comfort him but her effort didn't worked.

With his hands on his waist, he said "And you know what, for the time being, you can find someone else that doesn't ejaculate after five minutes of injection"

"Injection?" She frowned. Confused with his metaphor.

Harold gave a big sigh and left the house. Claire gave a sigh too. Couldn't believe what just happened. She said on the couch, faced palmed.

"Urrgh. I shouldn't have said that!"

From that incident, they broke up and Harold moved out of Claire's apartment.

Youths & Politics

2011-07-09T00:17:00.002+08:00

I have always wanted to write something on the topic, but today, I stumble upon something that inspired a spark in me that I hope will never fade away.

As I was reading through both of the articles and considering what has going on in Malaysia today, and especially, what has been going on in my beloved state, Sabah, I realized that, there's a lot that needs to be changed. We need to step up, especially, especially the youths of Malaysia, and in this context, Sabahan youths.

In 1963, we became Malaysia. But it's very sad that even until today, some Malaysian still think, both Sabah and Sarawak are not a part of Malaysia.I recall a conversation with this particular guy while I was at home in KL. And he said, 'Jadi, datang Malaysia untuk belajarlah?'I was offended but I didn't show it. I speak the national language. I pay using Ringgit. I sing Negaraku. I have an Identity card. I am Malaysian. But why this treatment?

And did you guys know that, 1/3 of Sabah's population consist of PATIs and this has been a part of our previous government's plan to increase Sabah's Muslim population and to recruit voters. These PTIs have also been given bumiputera status and privileges. Read this article from Saya Anak Bangsa Malaysia where Dr Chong Eng Leong talks about our PTI situation. Pay close attention to the population statistics:

http://sayaanakbangsamalaysia.net/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=314:whats-my-future&catid=40:tale-in-ten&Itemid=76

(referred from http: A Young Sabahans Guide to Bersih 2.0 by Nadira Ilana on Feistgeist)

And are you aware that, Sabah still doesn't get what she deserves after a massive contribution to the economy? Until now, some places in Sabah still doesn't have sufficient electricity and water supply, proper roads, poor public transportation services, some are denied access to proper education, medical facilities and etc.

Doesn't all this concern you? Don't you wish to see a change towards a better Sabah? You may see new concrete buildings flourish and the city's landscapes beautified but what does all this concrete buildings and landscapes mean if there are still problems exist and have not been settled for such a very long time?

All of these can lead back to the government. Politics. Most youths say, 'I hate politics', 'politics sucks', and so on but none refuse to step forward to make a difference. Most decided to stay in the shadows, making comments on politics and just sit and watch how the government treats its people. Especially the people of Sabah.

What happened to our rights as Sabahans? And what happened to the 20 point agreement drawn by North Borneo proposing terms for its incorporation into the new federation as the State of Sabah, during negotiations prior to the formation of Malaysia? Have you even bother reading the 20 point agreement?

(20 point agreement: http://bit.ly/lu6Z4o & http://bit.ly/kNYEBw)

By learning and getting to know politics, you will realize the harsh reality and be aware of your rights. So now, instead of saying 'politic sucks' take the time and get to know politics and realized how much it will affect your lives.

I was once told, 'if you don't like the government, then every five years you can change it'. And this is the time to change.

Long ago, I set goals in which I could contribute back to Sabah in hopes of a better place. I think this is the start. I hope the sparks in my will never fade, in stead, grow into a burning flame that will inspire a spark in others, in you.

Further reading: http://on.fb.me/lC0MuH & http://on.fb.me/jGCHgD

This is my very first time writing on this topic. I long to write something like this, and I guess, now is the time. Correct me if I get my facts wrong. Thanks for reading.

It's 80. It's 50. No! It's 265.

2011-07-04T04:05:00.001+08:00

This is also, based on a true story.

I requested my dad a sum of money to get myself a bunch of camera equipments and said that I'll pay him back after I got my payment for an upcoming project.

Me and Pau Panas were at Times Square, KL when this happened. I just bought a new lens for my camera which cost me about RM750. Then we roamed around back and forth to Low Yat where we enjoyed our life like a king at Starbucks and took our imagination 100 steps further like.

'Nak makan sushi? Jom pergi Jepun'
'Ais krim? Alah. No hal. Jom naik flight pergi U.S.A'
'Apa barang pergi Ikea kat Damansara tu? Ikea Swedenlah baru best'

And all other 'trip* kaya' statements we could think of.

So, we head back to Times Square because I remembered I need to get a battery for my DSLR. While walking to the Canon store (which looked more like a booth, in fact I think it is a booth) we discussed about the price.

J.J.: Agak - agak, battery Canon tu berapa harga dia?

Pau: Aku rasa dalam 80 kot.

J.J.: Hurm. Aku rasa boleh murah kot.

Pau: Ah, boleh kot.

J.J.: Aku bajet dalam 50 lah. Jom pergi tanya.

*walking towards Canon booth*

J.J.: Just want to ask, berapa harga battery Canon 550D erk?

Kind Chinese Guy: 265.

J.J. and Pau: *speechless*

Maklumlah, baru first time nak beli.

*trip - A Sabahan slang which means to show off. In KL slang, 'bajet'.

The Waiter Who Got Promoted

2011-07-04T03:43:00.000+08:00

This is based on a true story.

We were both hungry. Me and Pau Panas. So we decided to go to our favorite stall and have a plate of ayam penyet. Upon our arrival and to our dismay, our favorite stall was closed. So we decided to fill our tummies in Warung Candlelight.

We ordered and our order came. The entertainment was, I think HBO, Nightmare On Elm Street (I hate that movie but at the same time, I love to watch it). We were enjoying our dinner than suddenly, this guy, this one guy who already looked annoying, asked the waiter for the remote, changed the channel to some crappy local movie and not watch it which made him even more annoying.

But that's not the point of this post. It starts here.

After the channel changed and Pau finished smoking his Winston, I called the cook. After he left our table I said to Pau.

J.J.: Dulu, pangkat mamat ni waiter. Sekarang naik jadi penyanyi.

Pau: Oh.

J.J.: Eh?! Aduh! Bukan penyayi. Tukang masak.

The fact that I didn't sleep the night before and straight away went to swim the morning after, made my mind go loco.

p/s: I published this entry in hopes of making you laugh. Somehow I guess it didn't work. -.-'

Yuna Inspired Secret Concert

2011-07-03T04:02:00.002+08:00

Alert! This is a pended post which was supposed to be published, two months ago!

Well, two months ago I was so lazy to get the post done but eager enough to share other topics. Anyways, it's here and you are gonna read it because you are awesome!

In case you've been following my blog or read my post or did none of both or didn't know the existence of my blog, I have published a few entries that has got to do something with Yuna.

Yuna who? Yuna the singer! My eyebrow raised imaginatively (I'm not even sure what that means) when people say, Yuna who? Come on people, she's the revelation of today's music (I guess that explains everything). Google her and you'll be feasted with pure awesomeness.

Anyways, as I have said, I've been publishing lots of post regarding the Yuna Inspired contest, which I won. Yes, even though I'm two months late of sharing this post with you guys, I'm still proud to say, I won.

In case you've been missing the post, which perhaps, you did here's a refreshment for you guys:

The day I knew I won: Yuna Inspired

The MTV shooting day: MTV-Memo

All of these to leads to an event called, Yuna Inspired Secret Concert (which I think, didn't turn out to be a secret anymore at that time), held at Map KL on the last day of April. I'm two months late but I still remember all the details. I'm a perfect example of 'pemikiran tajam'. LOL. Feast your eyes with these awesome pictures.

The winners. From left: Pipi, Sarah, Shamiera and me.

Other special guests. These are the rendition people. The girl at the left end was so lucky to win a Blackberry and at the other end, is, Teekay. She's kinda cute. Beside Teekay is, Fira and beside her is Emirul who's only fourteen and can strum the guitar like a pro unlike me. Pfft!

Me and Wawa, Yuna's manager.

A line of awesome people taking awesome pictures.

It's Jojo! And she's very nice.

The not-so-secret-anymore Secret Concert was awesome. Yuna sang 10 songs, all of them are great and I really enjoyed it. Here's one video clip of the concert from Youtube.

It was a great night and I was happy to be a part of it. Thanks Yuna, again, (you must be tired of hearing/reading this hahaha) for choosing my line and thank you for me new baby the Canon EOS 550D which I will share with you guys later. Woohoo!

Oh yeah, did I tell you, I also won a Yuna autographed CD that night as well.

Just in case you haven't seen the MTV (I intend to show off without being cocky hahaha)

here's the MTV which I was involved in. Enjoy and stay awesome.

For more scoops on the concert, visit these websites:
Love In A Blog
Love Hate
My Wasteland

Kak Nong Restaurant

2011-07-03T03:17:00.000+08:00

F.Y.I., this is a pended post.

Pended or not, I still gotta share this story. So, did you guys ever read about my entry on The Reasons Why I Put On Weight? Well you should read it. This post, of course has got to do something with food. And I do remember that I mentioned about Kak Nong, a restaurant in Sembulan. Here, I'm going to dish out the details.

Previously, Kak Nong was located in Beverly Hills, Jalan Bundusan, Luyang. Then now, they move to a new place at Jalan Coastal. It's near Sembulan and just facing Sutera Harbour. It's easy to spot this restaurant.

Went to dine in here with my family after a long day out with my cousin. That was my second time going to this restaurant. My first time, which was at Jalan Bundusan, didn't leave me with a great impression but my second visit in the new location, I would say, it's one of the best restaurant's in KK. There are many foods to choose from from the menu such as...

This delicious wantan mee.

Mi goreng basah. By the way, that's my mum.

Chicken Kurma

And a big bowl of ABC Special.

And so much more!

The food was the delicious and this restaurant is very popular with locals. It's always full and people do care to wait just to get a seat.

I recommend this restaurant, and you just got to try this restaurant's buttermilk bun. It's fucking, yes fucking delicious. It's still hot (not too hot, between hot and warm) when they serve them on the plate. It's as if they serve it right out of the oven! Yummy!

Feast your eyes with extra pictures and information from these websites:

Melvin Ho

Best of Sabah

p/s: I'm not a good food photographer, that's for sure.

Previous Semester and the Current.

2011-06-25T02:15:00.000+08:00

Last semester was a whole loads of fun! With great friends in the same class and many challenging projects, it gave me a very great impact. The month April was very packed for me. Lot's of activities are on April and I have to say, I am stressed as I was chasing datelines. It's a typical students' life. Racing with datelines. It was haywire. And I didn't get enough sleep when the dateline is almost near. I hate datelines.

* * *

The picture above was for Multicamera Production Subject. I didn't took that subject the last semester. My friends asked to to become the talent for their music show. The picture on the left with me singing is for Kid's production, where in the first place, I was suppose to be a host for his show. But then, at the last minute, I agreed to be the talent who sings because they're talent cancelled at the eleventh hour! I didn't have much practiced singing Complicated by Avril Lavinge. I wasn't used to singing with a guitar. And I suck so bad. But I made it up when I became a host for Ann's production (the picture on the right side). I was so proud with what I did. I want more hosting job please!

'I used to eat here and now, I 'work' here'. That's the caption I used to upload the same picture in Facebook and people actually thought I work there at Dapur Penyet, Maju Junction. Hahaha. The story goes like this, Mugu selected me to be his talent in his music video for Directing Fundamentals & Aesthetics (DF&A) subject. The song was from Jason Mraz, Geel in the Pink. The first day of shoot was at Dapur Penyet where I had to act as a waiter serving this hot young girl and the story goes on. The shoot lasted for two weeks because, well, I don't really understand their schedule I just went a long. The clip was done and I can't wait to watch it (though I'm really not that eager to watch because I made some silly dance moves).

Now the picture above was my group for DF&A. We made an MTV for the late Sudirman's Mat Disko. We shoot our MTV at Damansara, Cheras and Bukit Bintang all in three days. I am so happy with my team. I was the editor for my group. The end result was awesome but to achieve that awesomeness I had to endure though editing works which left my with a big headache.

See the small circle part? In it the words 'Not Respoding' which I frequently experienced and it's irritating but thank God I survived through it. *Clapping hands*

Now, the picture above is when we're shooting our Music for Pictures final project. Dayang and Seha were involved as well because they are our actors. Seha's cousin was just tagging along. There was suppose to be four of us but Ayoe and Bavani couldn't join us. The shoot was quick and fun and I'm happy with the final result.

Another editing job I did was for my journalist friends. I didn't focus much on this but I did give my best to get this done. They did a documentary for the Radio and TV Production and I accidentally agreed to become their editor. Sorry girls, your documentary was not structured and I have to say it was bad. You girls didn't have a strong pre-production and most importantly, team work. Enough said. Oh yes, I was the host for their documentary as wel.

Last but not least, for our Malaysian Studies subject, we had to do a documentary on love. I have to say, I'm really satisfied with the final result. It wasn't a best documentary but at least, there's structure and effort put into it. Plus, I made four new girls, yes, girls in the class. We're in the same group.

So there you have it, what I did the last semester. It was a blast and I'm sure this current semester will be a blast too because I'm taking interesting subjects such as...

Multi Camera Production

Where, in this semester we're going to shoot a drama using multiple cameras instead of using just one.

And the best part is, I'm going to be the director.

Sound Production & Technology

New lecturer. We're going to learn more on sound. I just wish we could compose a music because we didn't do it for Music for Pictures but composing music wasn't on the lesson plan. For our final project, we're going to shoot a radio drama which brings back memories because I did the same thing when I was in high school.

Research for Media Production

This subject is quite hard but I'm up for it. Actually I don't know what to say about this subject.

And there you have it, my college activities which I should share with you guys so long ago but I just couldn't keep my mind to it.

And whoah! This is such a long post sorry for making you guys bored with my ramblings. Hahaha.

Stay tuned for more pending posts an new one's as well.

Cheers and be awesome.

Could I Have This Kiss?

2011-06-18T15:34:00.001+08:00

Click here for the whole scoop: Yahoo! Sports

These are the Reasons Why I Put on Weight

2011-06-18T00:08:00.001+08:00

So, I went back to KK on my semester break for three weeks. And in those three weeks, I get indulge various foods in my favorite restaurants around KK, Penampang and Papar.

And first up, it's Yee Fung Laksa. The restaurant is situated at Gaya Street. It's perfect location makes the restaurant itself very famous because, there are lots of offices in Gaya Street and weather it is breakfast or lunch, it's always full with people having breakfast or lunch break. Apart from that, every Sunday, there's a street fair where various people sells various things and various people come to but various thing and those various people do stop by at the restaurant to have a a bowl of their famous laksa. Words spread by mouth and people all over and near KK come to Gaya Street to have a bowl of laksa. Just look at this.

Every time I took a bite I feel a tingling sensation. Hah! No lah. Laughs. Every time I took a bite, I feel good, it is very tasty, for RM 5.00 a bowl (I think it used to be either RM 3.50 or RM 4.50 per bowl) it is definitely worth eating. Apart from this delicious laksa, Yee Fung also have an awesome clay pot rice and ngiu cap! Both are equally delicious as well. Well, there are many people who already reviewed this restaurant and it has been on the local newspapers many times! Saw the cutting on the restaurant's wall. Here are some online reviews on Yee Fung.

www.beautifulkk.com

www.borneocolours.com

I think it opens every day at breakfast and slows down at four. Definitely worth a try. Wondering if it's halal? Well, it has no pork in it. And I assure you, I even saw Muslims eating in the same restaurant a having a bowl of laksa!

Next up is, the stalls in Papar. Well, I wouldn't sure if to address it as gerai but most of Paparians (is there even a Paparian word?) call the place, 'gerai' which means stall.

It's a big place and it is very popular. It has around three to five 'stall's under on roof and went to the (not so) furthest 'stall'.

Even the simple display of various vegetables are interesting. Encourages you to eat! Hahaha. Even better, you can mix the vegetables you want. You can mix anything you want and the cooks will cook them for you. It's like having a home cooked meal outside your house. After you pick and mix those veggies, wait around 15 minutes and your food is done. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention, if you want any fish, chicken, meat or even pork in your dish, you can ask. They only display the vegetables. And here's what me and my family ordered.

1. Sweet and sour fish

2. Sayur manis with egg and pork

3. Mushrooms

4. Tofu

5. Pork with yam

6. Broccoli

7. Chu Kiok (I don't know how to spell but it's pork)

8. Bitter gourd

I think we had nine dished but I can only remember eight. And you know how much all that dishes cost including five plate of rice, coke and three glasses of Chinese tea cost? RM 32.70. That's right. They only cost us 30 bucks. It's so affordable and so worth it. We were full. I was sweating when I ate. There's a saying that I made up myself, 'if you sweat when you eat, the food is definitely good'. And yes, all those dishes were awesome. You guys got to try, it's near the post office. Oh la la! I'm drooling already.

And let's head to Jalan Tuaran to...

We've been to this restaurant ever since I was a little kid and we just keep coming and coming and coming. We are loyal customers. It serves the best noodles and the home made fish balls are the best. Also the meat. Oh la la! Prawn and fish slices. Oh yes.

1, Fish slice porridge.

2. Roasted pork, meat slice soup.

3. Noodle soup.

And all of those dishes, washed down with a bottle of low sugar, home made soy milk. The restaurant has another branch which is in Suria Sabah's food court on the third floor. You just have got to try!

From Jalan Tuaran let's head on to Towering, Penampang and dine in at...

Kedai Kopi Syn Lee

They have the best sasau (pork) that I have ever tasted so far. Besides that, the fried noodles are also delicious. I'm going to say this, you have got to try it!

And now I am seriously hungry. The restaurant is very popular it's always full with people and some are even willing to queue for a table. This clearly shows that a restaurant doesn't need to be labelled five star to have people queuing to get a table.

There you have it. My food journey while I was in KK and that is why I love KK, Sabah so much. The restaurants don't need to be fancy and yet they serve really good food. There are other great restaurants as well such as

Thien Thien Restaurant, Gaya Street and Putatan

Big Old Brother Fast Food, Center Point, KK.

Kak Nong, Sembulan.

And many other delicious restaurant in Tanjung Aru, those Jawa restaurants Tuaran mee. Oh la la. I'm getting hungry now. See you later. Gonna have a midnight snack!

The Site of Our New House

2011-06-06T12:41:00.000+08:00

Hey there guys! What's up? Well, if you have been following my blog, I previously published a post about Checking Out From Taman Union where me and my family moved out from out previous house in Putatan that we lived in more almost 13 years!

Now, today I'm gonna feed you with some photos of our new-soon-to-be-house. But let me tell you guys a little bit about the location. But the problem is:

I live in Penampang, but it's too complicated to tell where I live!

Well, If any of you knows where SK Buit Hill is, then, just go straight until you find a second junction, one straight and on goes to the left. Follow the straight (may I remind you, that straight isn't all that straight. Laughs) road then, just go straight. Pass the bridge, and from there, if you happen to be lost, and miraculously you have my number in your contacts, buzz me! Hahaha!

The name of the place? Hah! You got me there. I'm not even sure as well. It's gotta be either Kampung Kadundungan or Kampung Duvanson or Kampung Kanandaru, I don't know! Try Google Mapping them and they are not in the radar! Laughs.

Anyways, no matter where is it, or how complicated to know where the place is, I tell you, it is easy to get there!

And here's our house plan.

Oh wait! Before that, some sceneries of the place:

This is the view of our house from my Grandmother's house.

This is the view from our house. Notice the red roof? That's my uncle's house.

Somewhere behind those trees is my grandmother's and my other uncle's house.

I think this is the right side of our house facing vast paddy fields.

Ok, that's some of the view. Now let's get on with the house plan.

We live on top of a hill.

The house plan.

Bedroom 3 is my bedroom and the one next to it is my sister's.

I'm so excited and I can't wait!

The workers are doing a great job. They are concreting the floors and they do their job fast, as long as there are sufficient supplies of concretes and other building materials and of course cash! The house is scheduled to be completed by August!

The site of our house. The whole family is checking out the house.

Everyone is anxious! Last Saturday we went furniture surveying, everybody wants this and that! Hahaha. It was a whole load of fun!

And for our previous house, well, we do miss it so much! We even stalk the house to see how it's doing. It was funny. We're in our car driving pass the house as if we're some secret agent or something. Hahaha. That house will always be a great memory for all of us.

Just wait and you will see that awesome house when it's done!

Cheers.

Checking Out From Taman Union

2011-06-04T22:47:00.001+08:00

The whole David Joy clan finally checked out after for more than 10 years living in house number three in Taman Union, Putatan. We moved because someone bought the house and besides that, my father wants to build our own house at our kampung in Penampang.

It's such a sad and happy moment. It's sad because, I grew up there and we had many memories there as well. Like birthdays, parties, my sister's engagement and so many more. Transportation to town is easy as well. Oh yeah, there are some ghost stories too. Never mind that, let's go on to the happy part. It's a happy moment because, my dad can finally build our own house on our own land. We can also live with my father's siblings, my cousins, aunts and of course my grandmother. And, finally, I can have my own room! I do have a room in our previous house but I gave way to my mum's aunt to sleep in there. Where did I slept after all of this time? I slept on the sofa. Here are some pictures of the last day at our house.

From the top: Family room, dining room and living room.

The downstairs bathroom. I'm going miss the mirror!

The kitchen and the backyard.

Those pictures are the spaces available downstairs. I didn't get the chance to snaps some pictures of the upstairs rooms.

Just look at my brother-in-law's car. It's filled with my mum's stuff alone! She has a lot of stuff.

Goodbye.

Wait for my next post, where I'll share with you our house plan and the location.

Stay tune because I am awesome!

That's How Much I Miss You

2011-06-04T08:58:00.000+08:00

I put your picture as my wallpaper

Read you messages everyday

Giggle to the things that remind me of you

Recalling the tone of your voice

Sometimes mimicking how you speak

Looping your smile in my head

Rubbing my fingers as though I'm caressing your hair

Taking a deep breath to catch your scent

That how much I miss you

Grandmas At The Hospital

2011-06-02T12:05:00.000+08:00

Both of my grandmothers are at the hospital. One is at Papar and the other is at Sabah Medical Center, Damai. Last Sunday, (way last Sunday) we went to Papar to visit my grandmother. She was admitted into the hospital for such a very long time! It's so sad. She's going to be there for a long time because she needs to get her blood cleansed.

Still holding strong.

A little piece of the family.

I had a surprise while I was visiting my grandmother. I stumble upon an old friend of mine from school. It's Viviana Mojunggu. Long time no see girl. Apparently she's on practical in that hospital.

Why, I look bigger.

After the visit, we continued our journet to SMC, Damai where my other grandmother is admitted for thyroid. She's getting a surgery to remove the thyroid. She's very strong and has a great sense of humor even though she's in her hospital gown.

She went through her surgery and now she's doing well.

I hope both of my grandmothers will be granted good health. It's so sad to see them sick.

Save the Date

2011-06-02T10:44:00.000+08:00

Save the date!

29th October 2011.

It's my sister's wedding with her dearly beloved, Kevin.

We went to their fitting at Millennium. Just want to share the joy and pictures.

My dad.

See you on the 29th of October.

Bundle, Rombengan or Whatever You May Call It!

2011-06-01T22:56:00.000+08:00

IT'S BUNDLE SHOPPING TIME AGAIN!

This time, I head to East Malaysia to my home state, Sabah. Bundle location, just ten minutes from my (previous) house in Putatan. The bundle or as us Sabahan's call it, 'rombengan' stalls opens from Friday until Sunday every week. Went there with my cousin Kristy and look what I bought.

My cousin saw this sweater and when she showed it to me, I liked it. When I got home, I was surprised when I saw the label. It's a Uniqlo sweater and I got it only for RM12 (though I can get it cheaper, but it's okay)!.

Next this buttoned up shirt that has a hoodie. It look a like the ones that they sell in Cotton on for over a hundred bucks. And guess how much I got for it. RM10! It's ten times cheaper, looks new and expensive.

This is why I love bundle shopping.

Look at the label.

This shirt reveals the rock star in me. LOL.

Moving forward, I went to Papar to visit my grandmother at the hospital. I got a chance to go around Papar town and I immediately thought bundle! So I went there and I bought this:

A flower print shirt that cost me RM10 with a hint of vintage looks. I always wanted a shirt like this. I saw one at BB Plaza, Bukit Bintang. A quite similar one but brown in color which cost RM80. Buying that shirT 70 bucks less was worth it. But, I'm still going to get that shirt at BB Plaza though.

Suppose to share with you guys a long time ago but I was so busy with college work. I went to Chow Kit to buy a pink shirt for a video clip shoot. Instead I bought a shirt that has stars on it which looks really cool and I wore it for Yuna's concert. Looks very retro vintage indeed.

I'm star studded! Look at the label.

It's say New York! But really, it's made in Nepal! LOL.

And from the same place, I bought a football jacket which I wanted for a very long time already. My friend bought his at Sungei Wang for RM50 plus. Mine? I only got it for RM5! Five bucks people. It's green and it is really worth it. Plus, it is still in a good condition!

And you know what, it fits me perfectly! I wore it for a college project.

There you go, my update on bundle shopping. I do like new and branded clothes but bundle clothes are just as good as the new, branded and highly expensive ones. You just have to know how to pick a good one. Check the seams or if it's torn or not. And of course, stains! Don't just but one just because you like how it looks. And at times, you just got to try in on.

Here's another tip. If you find any age stains on your shirt or pants but most usually shirts, use baking soda. Mix it with water to make a paste and put on the stain and leave it for 20 minutes. Then wash. If that doesn't work, try lemon. If lemon doesn't work as well, bleach! But go easy on the bleach.

Cheers and happy bundle shopping!

For the Sake of Memory

2011-06-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

For the sake of memory, I bought these.

These are pencil erasers. Bought them from Kedai Buku Sabah (Sabah Book Store), Papar. I don't even know even know why I bought them at the first place but when I look at them it's like there's a flash of memories of the olden days. School days 12 years back though I can't be specific about which memory.

I'm just going to keep them in some transparent box then.

APV Shoot: The Glove Story

2011-05-26T02:41:00.000+08:00

In case you are wondering what APV is, it stands for Asia Pacific Video Lab. Want to know more? Click this link: http://www.apv.com.my/

The picture on the left is the first day of shooting at the first location.

How did I got involved? Well, I am one of the lucky ones who got chosen to do a practical job for the shoot. Others were Dayang, Mugunthan and Bavani. I don't know why I was excited but I was up for it. But there were some down factor which I will share later.

I really don't know what we're shooting about because we weren't really briefed about it. So on the 1st of May till the 2nd we just went for it. On the first day, our first location was at a housing area in TTDI. The house was beautiful. Once we got there, we were told that Bavani and I are suppose to be extras. But then Bavani went to the production manager and changed her role without Dayang consent which I think was really wrong because she didn't talk about it with Dayang. The production manager, Shima, told us, the extras to just stay put and not do anything, only Bavani and Mugu will do the job. So we stayed put and did nothing. We were just following orders.

Around noon, we moved to the next location which is at Mahsa College. My first impression, it has a cool architecture, a modern contemporary feel to it. How I wish my own college has a building like this. It would be much better. Moving on, we continued to shoot according to schedule. Me and Dayang are still the extras and as usual, we just stayed put. But we did some work too. It's not like we didn't do anything at all.

Just look at the picture above, it's Mahsa College. Look how big the hallway* is. I like it, it is so spacious unlike my college. Lot's of things could be done there. Plus, they have many toilets, which are so big and quite scary because it's at the end of the hall. Take a look at this, it's one of the toilets. Oh, did I tell you that they have a swimming pool as well?

Another thing is, they have this machine!

This machine sells prepaid credit and can print pictures! I think it's cool. I like to print pictures and stick them to my wall.

Setting up the equipment before shooting on the first day.

Still got the time to pose for a picture!

The cast for the second day of shooting. The guy in the middle, Nabil was the main actor. I was his PA for the second day. He asked to take lots of pictures of him using his iPhone. He was nice and funny. I forgot to send him an invoice for my services.

So, the second day started early. We actually came to the location on time and I was still sleepy at that time because the lots of things in my mind with assignments and all that. But I coped. I was enthusiastic for the second day of shooting. It's the same place, just more scene needs to be done. And on that second day as well, the were many extras and I was glad that I handled them. It's like being a caretaker or something. It was fun.

And I also took the time to be a Mahsa College receptionist. Don't mind the ugly face. I was tired and exhausted because of work from the week before.

And that Crocs Uncle Morris bought for me did not go to waste! I'm very thankful that I have a pair of these:

They are light and easy to walk around with so my feet weren't feeling 'heavy' at all.

I was all about having fun doing my job until I found out that, the producer said I wasn't doing my job. I was like what the fuck man, what the fuck. Of course I did my work. Maybe you just did not see it. That made me not want to do my work for the rest of the day. I officially dislike the producer.

Another thing that upset me was, people who doesn't respect other people's work. I don't want to say who's the person but, she (yes, it's a she) doesn't know where to stop at all. For instance, while I was the one who's asked to do a job, she immediately ran for it. I was like what the fuck?! If she asked for permission that she want's to do that job with me I don't mind. But she didn't! And when someone does a job she went 'oh, it's okay, let me do it'. Thus she got all the credit. And there are other things that I'm dissatisfied about this person as well but I'm letting it go. Let bygones be bygones. I don't want to make a fuss about it. I'm just glad everything that has got to do with this shoot is over!

I'm glad I had this experience. I will never forget it. And the sweetest memories was with.... drum roll please, with Shima the production manager!

She was nice. She was sweet. She thought me a lot for even a short two days.

I just realized that I looked ugly in that picture.

I hope an opportunity like this will come again in the times to come. Hopefully not with a producer and work mate like that.

I'm so sleepy but still got more to blog. Hear me anytime soon!

Cheers.

*I used hallway because I don't know what to call that space.

MTV: Memo

2011-05-21T02:51:00.000+08:00

Pardon me for sharing this topic late! It's suppose to be published a few weeks back but I was so busy with college assignments and final projects plus the final examinations which I answered like crap.

Back to the topic, remember that I posted something about winning the Yuna Inspired Contest? If you haven't checked it out, here's the link: Yuna Inspired.

On the 20th of April, I went to shoot the MTV with all the other winners and Yuna herself! It was fun and awesome. The director Zul, was a nice director. All the production team were really cool as well. They weren't that serious type but do their work efficiently.

It's Yuna's scene

The crew. The one with the brown shirt is the director.

JJ and Yuna.

We're playing with balloons!

It's Wawa. Yuna's cousin/manager.

The first location was at a park at TTDI. It's a big park. Many people and many seniors are tai chi-ing the morning away.

She likes to snap.

Time to shoot our scene.

The winners! Left to right: Pipi, Sarah, Wawa and Ami

F.Y.I Pipi Rosli is the rendition girl. Check her video:

Hell yeah she can sing!

The next location, we went to Mont Kiara, to Yuna's manager which is also her cousin which also happens to be very very very nice, Wawa! In case you got confused, there's two Wawa's in this story. She has got a nice place and the shoot lasted the whole day.

Will you look at that! She sings and she draws.

Interviewed.

I don't what else to say about the shoot except that it was fun, exciting and an experience I would never forget. Oh yeah, did I mention, the shot the MTV with SLR camera's? That was cool as well.

The video? Yes it's done. It's nice and I can't stop watching it. Here it is:

Cool right. I can brag that I wrote a song and I was in a video clip. Haha!

I hope there will be more similar projects like this for me after this. In front of the camera of course. But if it's back of the camera, pun bolehlah!

Cheers and have a nice day.

Don't Fuck Up. Be A Smart Student.

2011-05-15T20:39:00.000+08:00

'When circumstances in life are already fucked up, don't fuck up yourself'

In other words, do not sabotage yourself.

These past few days or maybe even months (as long I can remember) I saw and heard statuses and statements made by students saying either:

'The final examination is around the corner, I haven't submitted all my assignments and I haven't studied at all'

When in fact, this student have all the time in the world to do his/her assignment but instead spending more time on watching the television and playing Plant Vs. Zombies and stay up until early in the morning.

'This semester is the worst semester ever I bet I will fail all the subjects'

When in fact, he/she could come to college but never made the effort to do so. The fact that he/she knew that he/she will fail never bothered him/her at all.

'My college is fucked up'

Yes I feel you bro, my college is your college and it is fucking fucked up all right. But in spite of that, what you could do is make the best out of it. Your education loan is still running whether you go to college or not. And, I may say that you are fucking up yourself to education debts that's not worth it at all.

‘I’m so busy I’ve got so many things to do and I don’t have time for that!’

When in fact, he/she have all the time in the world to do everything but don’t know how to manage his/her time. Busy is just a lame excuse and I’ve heard this many times and I am fed up of it. If you are saying that your are busy even after managing your time and you can’t make time then I personally feel it is acceptable but if you are saying that you are busy but still have the time to hang out and going places then you are a fucking bull shit.

And there are many other excuses as well.

All of these are just excuses. And when the results come out, all these kind of students do is complain and complain. They are blaming the lecturers and the college administration for their fucked up results when in fact they never put an effort to strive for the best. They have no right to do so if they are at fault. And at these times you can see a lot of students beg for more marks from their lecturers so that they can pass.

Let me tell you one thing, these lecturers already gave all the opportunity in the world to give you great marks, all you need to do is put in some effort. But you didn't.

And only students who worked really hard to get good grades have the right to stress their concerns when their results doesn't reflect the effort that they put in.

My point by saying all this, I just want to say, especially to all students out there, do not trouble yourself. If your are making more troubles and all that, you can never solve anything. I am a student as well and I am not saying I'm a perfect student because I have flaws too. I'm just saying what I really feel.

If you are a student, then perform your responsibility as a student. And be a smart one as well.

Ex

2011-05-08T18:55:00.003+08:00

I still keep your underwear

With all you t-shirts unwashed in my closet

Because I miss your scent

Especially when you wake up the morning after

I never deleted many pictures of you in my gadgets

I go through them every night

Or when I'm bored

Or when I feel like I wanna get close to you

I guess I never get enough of you

Those gift you gave on various occasions

They're not in boxes

Never threw them away, I just couldn't

Concert tickets, movie passes

Origamis, even the slightliest cuttings

You name it

They're on my wall

You favourite color is purple with a hint of turquoise

You collect disco balls of various sizes

Because you like how they shine

You like to take candid close ups of me with your polaroid

Laughing to how ridiculous I look

Dresses were never you thing

But I appreciate it when you wear one

Especially the dress you wear the night you sneaked out of your house

Do you remember that?

I learned you

You were my gratest lesson

Changed me in everyway possible

I just wanna sit with you in a room and not have sex

Smiling with you and drowning in your eyes

Having that moment of silence so pure

I'd be very thankful

If I could have it back

There's no more us when you told that we were over

But I just still can't find the full stop

I can't seem to move on

I don't how should I star over

I'm lost.

KLMU Inspired Fashion Show: Inspiring or Not?

2011-04-24T15:52:00.000+08:00

This post might be a little bit to late. Wait, this is so late. Well, this is about KLMU's Inspired Fashion Show. It was held three weeks ago at the Sime Darby building. Why I was there? Well, a friend came to me many times before the date of the event, asking for my help to handle the camera. I don't want to say how bad she handled the camera. To that friend, it's events like these you need more man power and do not, do fucking not hesitate to seek help from your friends. Study some shots. And be prepared. Don't do everything at the eleventh hour. You get it?

The logo was nice, but the visible KLMU logo behind it makes it look, let's say weird.

This fashion show features aspired young designers, the first batch of the fashion students showcasing their designs. It's a good event to do because it exposes the students to experience a little bit of the fashion industry. Even though thee show serves a good purpose, but this show has a lot of 'weakness'.

Like, first and foremost, the runway. As for me, the runway is really really bad. The aren't enough lights. It was really dim. How can you have a fashion show where you can't see the clothes clearly? And the runway itself is a disaster! It was an eleventh hour effort. It was so bad. With bad lighting and a black carpet on a runway, what do you get? I know it sucks. If it was up to me, I'd rather not have a runway.

Just look at the runway! Urgh! *Vomits*

Next is the performance. The opening performance was a cultural dance performance, I was 'do these people pay to watch a dance or clothes?' The next thing is, the dance lasted for 15 fucking minutes! 15 fucking minutes! All the photographers were sighing saying when will this dance end. When it ended, every photographer, including me, gave a sigh of relief. Even the audience looks bored watching the dance. What does a fashion show has to do with a cultural performance. Unless if it's portraying cultural costumes then the cultural dance would fit. Then there was a singing performance, two actually, but this one singer sounds so fucking bad. Seriously I could sound better. He sang Bunkface's Generasiku and he has four back up dancers who are equally bad as well. My gosh. My gosh. My fucking gosh. Like what the hell man! It was really bad. You got to see it or yourself. And the other singer, well he could sing well but, yes, there's a but the way how the performance goes was, unfortunately, bad.

Thank God I didn't die watching this disaster.

The sound system? In Malay, 'jangan cakaplah, pun buruk juga'. It was so bad. We can’t hear the singer clearly (which turns out this could be a good thing as well). But yeah, we can’t hear the sound well and it was cloudy. The emcees voice isn't clear. Speaking of emcees, (sighing) they weren't that good as well. I’m not bragging but, seriously, I can do it better. Fucking better. They can’t really do an impromptu speech and they weren't clear with what they want to say.

Oh yeah, I forgot. There was another signing performance as well. Two girls singing Firework while the models walking on the runway launching new products from Starbucks. Thank God, the girls sang way better.

The outfits? Well all I can say is, the outfits from these inspiring designers, well, let me say congratulations to you guys first. Some of your designs are good and some are just bad. It is understandable that this is your first time but, seriously, I think most of it were bad. What I don't understand is, my isn't there any specific theme for the fashion show? By my observation, I can see many themes or concepts like goth, some Thai or Twilight in the 1950's. It was a mess. But one thing I found in common about these designs is the shoulders. It's like there are horns growing out of the model's shoulders. Raised and pointed shoulders. Futuristic? Perhaps. I don't know. And one other thing is, I don't understand your design! Bottom line is, congratulations, but you guys could have been better.

I like this model.

I don't get the shoulders.

Goth or not?

What else? I think that’s about it. Oh wait. I just wanna say, someone stole my fucking goodie bag. Fuck man. There’s a Starbucks voucher in it. But whatever. My point is, this was the first time that an event like this is held. It could have been better but I guess some last minute changes and budget problems, made the even ‘lame’.

But guys, congratulations.

My apologies if you are offended by this post.

Cheers!

Life 'Raped' Me. Fuck!

2011-04-08T20:36:00.001+08:00

All right, this week has been pretty rough for me. Lot's of things that happened. Some were good and the bad ones has really affected me emotionally. Let's go through my whole week together shall we.

Monday:

What the fuck man. English class at 8.00 am. But the day went pretty well. Then at night, I went to help a friend to cover for the college fashion show. The event, to me, was okay. Tell you more about it later.

Tuesday:

Mugu called me to replace Kid for his music video and in return, I asked him to capture the fashion event rushes for me. At night, I went to the club. I only have less than RM10 in my wallet.

Wednesday:

Class. Then I intend to go to the bank. But each bank I go, my card was rejected. I only had RM 2 in my wallet. I was like what the fuck man. What the fuck. Fuck you. Shit. Thank God, mummy solved the problem for me.

Thursday:

Woke up late for class. Took the cab and the driver refused to take other passengers in, and I ended up paying more! Fuck you cab driver. Fuck you. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Then while walking to college, something hit my right eye and it got teary. I went to Sime Darby toilet to clean my eye, then stomach ache. I was like, what the fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Then I was down for the whole day and other bunch of stuff came up. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. At night, went to the club and the club was rushed. Good thing nothing happened. But, fuck the rush as well.

Friday:

Woke up late for Mugu's rehearsal. I only had two pieces of chapatti or my all my meals of the day cause I don't have enough money. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Went home by bus. The condo's security was an asshole. Fuck you security guard. Fuck you. Don't you have a mouth to speak. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Then I was reminded about the access key to the condo. Again, fuck, fuck, fuck! I paid RM 23 but until now I have never got the access key. Fuck you warden. Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck. Fuck you irresponsible warden. Fuck you big time KLMU.

I still want to say fuck. Fuck. Fuck and fuck.

I hope my Saturday and Sunday and the weeks to come would contain less fuck.

This week is so bad until this song....

sounds even better.

Things Up For Sale!

2011-04-02T16:42:00.001+08:00

Recently I heard that we had to move out of this house because of some college problems but then, it's not confirmed yet. But anyways, confirmed or not, I have lots of my stuff in my house that I share with friends and my aunt's stuff as well. Don't ask why my aunt's stuff is in my house, It's a long story. Just look at this.

Just look at those stuff.

It goes under the table too.

Wait till you see the boxes under my bed.

So, I decided to sell some of my aunt's stuff that can be sold. She even agreed to sell them. So I am like the 'orang tengah' lah.

Here are the stuffs up for sale.

A book rack (right) and the left one is, well I don't know what to call it. I guess it's where you put papers.

Both for RM 14.

Lamp.

It's not Ikea or whatever but the lamp is still good.

Condition, I would say 90% still good.

Lamp shade is dark blue.

Lamp stand is light brown.

Price: RM 12.

Automatic Speedy Kettle (Hanabishi).

The kettle is in the box. It's tightly sealed so I don't bother to open it up.

Condition 100% still good.

Original price: RM 29.90

Selling price: RM 18.00

Sandwich Toaster (Elba).

For those of you who loves sandwich more than you love anything else, this is the thing for you.

Makes two sandwiches at a time.

Condition 100% working.

Easy to use.

Price: RM 25

Radio (Kingwood)

FM & AM radio.

Plays CDs and tape.

Condition: 98%

Price: RM 90

Bowling Shoes

The shoes belong to my sister.

Condition: 95%

Size: 5

Can be used for bowling and going out around town.

Color: Cream. Stripes are dark brown

Price: RM 65.

Now you have your own bowling shoes. You need a bowling bowl!

Made is U.S.A

Weight: (I assume it's 10 kg)

Price: RM 180

This is for hand support while you bowl.

For women.

Condition 100%

Price: RM 30.

These are the stuff that I want to sell.

If you are interested, you can e-mail me at jessejanuary@yahoo.com

Prefer customers who resides in KL or Selangor.

If you happen to drop by, do share this with your friends.

Thank you. (Big thank you if you decided to but any of these stuff).

The Ideal One, Perhaps.

2011-03-31T21:04:00.000+08:00

My previous post has something to with girls. So for this current one, I decided to write a list on the girl that I would like to date.

1. She must be a Catholic.

2. She must have long hair. No blondes.

source: The Will & Kate Update

3. Likes wear dresses.

4. Have fair and smooth skin.

5. Likes to wear high heels.

source: Hell in Heels

6. Kind and not too spoiled.

7. Always up for sex.

8. Hairy woman is a big no no.

9. Sexy, sultry, sensuous and elegant and class.

10. Respect to others.

11. Understand me and my goals in life.

12. Praises me for always being sexy.

13. Knows how to cook.

source: Sama Baby Blog

14. Likes to read.

15. Knows how to do house work.

16. Fashionable and stylish.

17. High maintainance but likes to lead a simple life, like me.

18. Likes beaches and secret getaways.

19. Knows how to make money.

source: Healthy Living

20. Smart.

21. Always looks sexy, sultry, sensuous and elegant for me. And I will do the same.

22. Loves mother nature.

I have other ideal characteristics on a woman I would love to date but let's just stop here. And of course, this is just a list. I don't expect the girl that I'll be with will have all these characteristics in one.

Love

2011-03-31T03:19:00.001+08:00

When talking about love, I would admit, that I have never been really really in love. I have never been in any relationships. I had some crushes but they remain crushes. I just think that... Well let me put it this way: I realize that I need love so much, not by my family but someone special especially at the current stage of my life but, I don't really think it's necessary and I don't really want to think much about it. Let's just say, I need love but I'm not interested in it.

Let's talk about crushes. I have a lot but let's talk about the ones that have a great impact on me. The hugest crush I had was while I was in the National Services. A girl named Jessica caught my eye. She was perfect. She's all that I wanted and I wanted to be in a relationship with her. When I told her how I feel, she responded by saying, she has many crushes (half of the camp was really really into her) and i she would accept me, it wouldn't be fair to all the other boys who have crushes on her. I respected her decision and decided to be friends. It hurts but it's okay. At least she's my friend. But then I found out she's in a relationship with this guy, I was like, 'what the heck?'. I couldn't believe it at first. Both of them (Jessica and the guy) denied rumors. It was hurtful but I didn't care and I did not know what to believe. So I just let my feelings on her pass by.

And then recently, I met this very beautiful girl. There's no need for me to put a name here. She energetic, she's optimistic, she has goals in her life. Plus, she has long hair, beautiful skin and wears high heels which is my type. I told my friend about this and she told me to go on with it. I would because it would be such a 'loss' just to let her go. But then, I'm not sure if I want to have a relationship with her. It's not that I'm afraid of commitment. I swear if I have her, I would take care of her, give her with all that I can even though she earns her salary more than me. I need that love. I need that relationship but I just think that for now, it isn't necessary. I had imaginations of me being with her but those are just imaginations not a future. And just like Jessica, I will let this pass by.

I may write touching love poems and romantic short stories but it's just words. I need to feel the real thing. I need love. I need a relationship. I need a girlfriend. There, I have said it. But I just don't think it is really important. Yes at the end of the day, I end up feeling empty inside, but I still don't think it's important. You might say, 'if you're feeling empty inside, how would you feel happy?'. Honestly, I can't answer that. I fucking can't. I can't lie about how I feel. But, I still have ways to make me happy, like my deep passion for music, art and nature. And I hope these would make me happy.

p/s: don't bother finding me a girlfriend. and no, I don't need that Justin Bieber's I need somebody to love song.

Is this really what I wanted?

2011-03-25T03:12:00.000+08:00

This past few days has been an amazing experience for me. Aside from meeting new people, new friends everyday, I learned to look back at life and what I really wanted. What I needed.

Before I go to that part, Anum a great friend of mine asked me out. I thought we were going somewhere where we could have fun. I imagined we both hanging out at Starbucks. But that didn't happened. Instead she took me to The Weld and that's where all this thing started.

I can't say much about what I experience. But it has something to do with health, which is really amazing and also business which is very, very promising. Both of this combined forming a very great community of young people striving to get the best of life via business.

And I thought, why not? A great business with great incomes.

I like the concept of the community, where everybody helps each other to be at the top. Where the bond between friends is just not friends anymore but more like a family. All of these young adults are close. What's more important that, this community helps today's youngsters to realize the reality of life and now is the time to act to shape their future.

I like that. It's admirable.

I am attracted. I am interested. And I know I can do it. And I know if I do it, I could possibly have all that I dreamed of. A car, my own house. Maybe even buy the whole Pavilion building. Than theres all these sharing sessions where we're suppose to tell how we feel about all this thing, this past few days.

It came to me that, is this what I really wanted? Is this how I want my life to be?

This business is a great opportunity. No doubt about that. I can surely see myself doing this. But I kept asking myself, if I join this, do I really want to do business or do I only want the profit?

Why I see myself doing this? It is because, I realized that I want to stop depending on my parents financially. Second, I want to have the power to spend all I want. Third, I want to settle my education loan as soon as possible. The list goes on.

If not? Why? My mind and body is in this business. Want to join this community. But unfortunately, my heart is not there. Is it because the lack of confidence? No. Afraid to speak out loud? No. Lack of communication skills? No. My heart is just not there.

Where my heart it? Where does it belong to? My answer is art. I have a deep passion for art. I have many plans for myself in terms of art. I have listed down as many plans as possible so that, if one does not work, I can try the other one. Yes, art. Singing. Acting. Poetry. You name it.

Apart from that, I enjoy the simplest things in life. I lie if I say, I don't want to get that Burberry shirt or a pair or Louis Vuitton shoes. But then when I think back, it's not these things that makes me happy. The simplest things make me happy. Like enjoying my night in a quiet room reading a book. Or sit on the balcony sipping my tea while looking at the stars. Or just watch a movie. Cook. Having a simple but meaningful chat with a friend. Taking a nap at the beach. And pray.

Besides that, I do wanna to help little children, not in terms of money but in terms of my effort, helping them the best way I can. Help to save Mother Nature. Encourage people to recycle.

That's what's I need. That's what I want to do.

Business that I'm currently introduced to? I don't know. I'm not sure at all. It does give me, bring me what I want. But can that make me happy? Do I really want to do that for the rest of my life?

Most of them say, that this is an opportunity of a lifetime and I fucking believe that. Of course it is a great opportunity. But, I have to know where my heart lies. And for now, my heart is not in this current thing that I am currently involved in.

Part of me says, it's your loss if you don't take this opportunity. If you don't take this opportunity, just imagine how would your life be, with all those loans, and you don't have power over money.

But then, it's a risk I'm willing to take. I might regret it. But who knows.

So, if you're asking do I want to join that community and do the business?

I can't give a definite answer. My mind and body says yes, but my heart says no.

Yuna Inspired

2011-03-18T10:06:00.000+08:00

Last Wednesday, something great happened to me. But before I tell you more about it, let me explain briefly how it started.

It all started when I saw Yuna's wall post:

I knew long ago about Yuna Inspired on Twitter but never really took interest in it until I saw that wall post. The winner won Canon EOS 550D camera! I always wanted a camera, so, immediately took part in the contest.

(You can find out more about that contest by visiting the Yuna Inspired website)

I had to complete the last line of the fourth and last verse. I tried to come up with a very flowery and poetic sentence but all that I couldn't think of wasn't really inspiring and really looks desperate and trying extremely hard. Then I came up with something simple and I think it was perfect. It the last line of the last verse, so the line should be simple and concludes the whole song. For your information, I entered the competition two days before the closing date!

And on Wednesday morning, I was on my way to college when I got an anonymous call. The guy said, I won! I am the fourth winner for Yuna Inspired! I was so happy. He told me if I have received an e-mail about it, I said I'll check it later. After 'scavenging' for a McDonald's breakfast, I immediately went to the nearest cyber cafe at college. Turns out, the day before, I did received an e-mail. It was in my deleted e-mails list! I was like 'phew!' Thank God I didn't permanently delete the e-mail.

So went home after class and replied the e-mail. Several hours later, I saw this on Yuna's page:

I AM THE WINNER!

I was so happy and I am still happy. So, thankful and I am still thankful. I never thought something like this would happen to me. This is one of the best days of my life (okay, this sounds like an Oscar speech).

Anyways, by entering this competition, it has inspired and encouraged me to continue on with my writing.

Yuna, you rock! And now, I am waiting for me prizes! Yeah!

I am a happy kid.

In case you're wondering what's my winning line, here it is:

"Together we'll always be for what may come"

Cheers!

Don't Let Language Be The Reason

2011-03-17T02:00:00.001+08:00

What suppose to be a great night turned out to be a bummer. Besides the stove ran out of gas, I came across this one article from a friend who posted in it Facebook. The article really touched me because I am a part of it. How? As a Christian.

The article is about Pertubuhan Pribumi Perkasa Malaysia having doubts on Bibles that are printed in Malay language.

I don't want to share my opinions on this issue on a religious point of view but, on language. because this is not about the religion itself anymore. It is about language. You can read more about it by clicking this link:

PERKASA Tetap Curiga Dengan Alkitab Injil BM

Christians in Malaysia have been using 'Malay' language for many years and why?

Reasons, in my opinion many Christians in Malaysia uses 'Malay' in the Bible or for masses or other religious occasions are:

1. There are many tribes in Sabah and Sarawak (maybe some in West Malaysia) and they speak different dialects. You can't expect churches to have masses in different dialects on Sundays. Imagine twenty masses in one day?

7.00 am: Kadazan Penampang; 8.00 am: Murut; 9.00 am: Dusun; 10.00 am: Kadazan Papar etc.

2. The use of Malay language is so because so that Christians can unite and profess their faith without any language barriers. Imagine a Bible study session, the teacher is Kadazan and the student is Murut. If both of them speak in their own mother tongue, how would they understand each other? Hence, the use of Malay language can remove the language barrier.

3. In East Malaysia, especially in Sabah, there's also foreigners like those Timurese (and maybe some other ethnic who resides in Sabah) and they also speak Malay. Hence, the use of Malay language.

4. You can't expect those book racks in the church's book store to be labelled with all different languages. That is not a library and not a language institution!

Setting: church's book store somewhere in KK.

Korean: dangsin eun hangug-eo lo seong-gyeong i issnayo?*

Book Store Lady: err?

Korean: (struggling to speak English) Do you have a Bible in Korean?

Book Store Lady: (eyes wide open) I'm sorry Mr. Korean, we don't have it.

I can place an order and you can come back after three weeks.

*I Google Translated the question.

These are my reasons and I don't see why Christians using the Malay language is wrong or should be forbidden! Language is for everyone.

Bibles in Malay confusing the Muslims? As far as I know, Muslims hold their religion closely to their heart, embracing Islam and having Islam as a way of life, there's no way they can be confused.

So why this language issue? Aren't we 1 Malaysia? All for one and one for all?

1 Malaysia? Is it possible? I don't know and I am starting to lose faith on that campaign. If it wasn't for the RM30 balance in my Touch & Go card, I would already break it into pieces because of the 1 Malaysia logo.

I'm going to stop here. I don't want to go any further.

Don't let language be the reason that drifts us apart from each other.

I don't want to have any bad feeling about my Muslim brothers and sisters, I love them dearly as much as I love my Christian brothers and sisters.

Instead bugging our minds with problems like this, why can't we just work together to build a far more better nation than before.

Peace.

Drug

2011-03-13T17:25:00.002+08:00

You're just a waste of my time

But still I bother waiting

You're no use to talk to

But still I'm the one who starts the conversation

You're using me

But still I'm willing to be your puppet

You don't really care much for me

But still I'm crawling back to you

You're a drug

And I am drugged.

444: It Hurts

2011-03-02T15:39:00.001+08:00

It hurts

When you say you love him

How you miss him so much

How you want to be in his arms

It sucks

When you share your stories

On how you day was

Or what you both ate for dinner

It pains

To know that I'm starting to miss you

To imagine this story could be ours

To say that, it should have been me, suppose to be me

It kills

When you know how I feel about you

You chose to be faithful to him

And still, after all this time, you want to wait for him

Girl, it hurts, it kills.

443: You're Not What You Used To Be

2011-03-02T15:37:00.002+08:00

You cuddled

You kissed

We held hands

We laughed

You praised me

Even adored me

Said wonderful things about me

On how perfect I was

You lusted for me

You wanted me

I was irresistable

I'm the one you needed

But you're not what you used to be

I thought that I was all you wanted

Fitting the characteristics of the man of your dreams

And I just couldn't keep up with your list

And here, you left me hanged

Felt so stupid and sounded fucking pathetic

I gleefully believed that we have a future

It always takes two to tango

Turns out, when the light's are on, I was the only one dancing.

442

2011-03-02T15:35:00.000+08:00

I respect you and your religion as well.

But please don't ever ask me:

'Don't you want to convert into a Muslim?'

Though I'm not a devoted Christian, but I deeply love my religion.

And I believe so do you.

I respect you and your religion as well.

441: Financial Management

2011-03-02T15:27:00.000+08:00

I've always believed that 'what goes around, comes around'. And in this case, 'when using money, money will come back to you'. It does. And recently, money came but I felt guilt because the money comes from my parents, never from my loan and that I just can't seem to spend my pocket money wisely. And worse of all, I spend more than I save. Should be the other way around.

This is the point of my life were that financial counselling I had during my National Services days can be put to good use. I was so i'll at that time, so I couldn't join that counselling.

Yesterday, I spent RM40 on books alone! Well, it was worth it cause I got three really good novels. Anyways, that RM40 really woke me up. I need to have a plan my spendings wisely and how to use my money wisely.

I didn't list down all my spendings on February but I did on January which I almost spent nearly RM800. Another wake up call! Just imagine, I've been in Kuala Lumpur for about 16 months. Times 16 with 800! I don't want to know the answer, it's scaring me.

Last night, I say a AKPK commercial on TV. AKPK stands for Agensi Kaunseling dan Pengurusan Kredit. So I decided to check it out, hopefully will help me to better manage my dough.

So, I found out that, according to the article, in order to manage my money, I need to know what's my relationship with my money. Relationship from the past and present, that will determine my future spendings.

Past

To understand the kind of relationship you have with your money, let’s flashback to the time while you were growing up. Most often than not, your perception about money were shaped by the adults around you. You probably picked up many feelings and ideas about money from your family.

Present

Sometimes you can find out how you feel about something by finishing an idea in your own words. Try to complete as many as you can and be aware of your feelings when you go through them:

1.      It is easy for me to spend money on ……………………
2.      It is hard for me to spend money on ……………………
3.      I like earning money because …………………………..
4.      I worry about money when ……………………………..
5.      I argue about money because …………………………..
6.      Saving money makes me feel …………………………..
7.      If I had enough money today, I would ………………….
8.      Talking about money makes me ………………………..
9.      When I buy things I don’t need, I ……………………….
10. I don’t know how to manage my money because ……….

Future

The best way to plan for the future is to understand your past and your present. Knowing how you think and feel about money helps you ask important questions. Your answers can help you make good decisions. Try asking yourself the following questions and take some time to think through your answers.

Hopefully with these simple and useful tips, I can manage my money and spend wisely. This doesn't end here though. I do have another problem with spending. Sometimes I just spend like crazy and I need to know how to control my spending habits. And thanks to AKPK, the website has an article on how to control your spending habits.

I have to say, financial management is really an interesting topic to learn. Not only it helps you with your financial problems but, it also helps you to think wisely.

I suggest you visit this website: http://www.akpk.org.my/ and learn a bit about you and your money. It will benefit you not only for your current situation, but for future plans or unexpected circumstances that might occur.

440

2011-02-27T21:24:00.000+08:00

Just sharing a conversation between me and the brother at Mak Usu's while paying for my food.

Brother: Eh, comel ni lagi!

Jeremy: Uh, comel?

Brother: Yelah. Badan awak bukan main nak comel lagi.

Jeremy: (dalam hati berkata) Perli ke tu bang?

FYI, comel mean cute in English.

439: My First Chicken Curry

2011-02-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

I always had Aunt Rita's and my sister's chicken curry in mind. Thinking about it make me want to eat chicken curry so bad! I craved for it. I always wanted to try to cook chicken curry by myself. And yesterday, I braced myself and prepared myself, chicken curry!

I searched for simple curry recipe and I found this site which has all other recipes as well. Check it out: Resepi Malaya.

I couldn't wait to prepare the chicken curry so I cleaned the kitchen just to kill some time. When it was around 7.30 pm I went to the night market and grocery store and bought the ingredients, and here they are:

Garlic, shallots, and ginger, crushed.

Spices (I forgot the names -.-')

Potatoes

Plus the chicken, tamarind, water, salt and coconut milk. Oh yeah! How could I forgot the curry powder? LOL. Three spoons of curry powder and some water to make a paste.

The original recipe has 'daun pandan', 'buah pegaga' and sugar to it but I altered the recipe a bit, just a creativity thing I guess.

I'm just going to go through the steps very quick. Here it goes.

1. Heat the pan or periuk or whatever you want to use.

2. Pour some oil. Depends on how much you wanna pour it.

3. Put in the spices. Stir a little bit.

4. After a few minutes, add in the ginger, garlic and shallots, stir until 'garing'.

5. Put the curry paste in. Stir.

6. Chickens! And cover the pan.

7. When you fill the time is right, add in the potatoes.

8. Add the tamarind.

9. If you feel that the potatoes are soft, add in the coconut milk and some salt.

10. Wait for a few minutes.

11. Serve while it's still hot!

I never thought preparing chicken curry would be this simple. Here's my first chicken curry:

Taa daah!

IT'S VERY DELICOUS!

I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF. :)

From this day on, I've decided to try e new recipe everyday. Cooking is a new hobby of mine and I love to cook. :)

Bon appetite.

438: 100 Days Since He's Gone

2011-02-21T00:39:00.000+08:00

Oh the 18th of February last week was my late grandfather's 100th day anniversary of his death. Too bad I can't join my family members on that day. I wish I could.

He passed away on the 11th of November last year, leaving behind a very big family that deeply misses him.

I'm not that sad that he passed away because eventually all of us will die. What I'm sad about was, how I didn't get to know my grandfather really well. I never really had a one on one conversation with him, about how his life was. Sure there were stories that my other family members told me but it's not the same feeling when you talk to your on grandpa.

I remembered that day when he gave me a pair of shoes. It was, if I can recall, made of leather. Of course my feet grew bigger so I don't wear that shoes much. And at last I gave that pair of shoes away. Now the memory of it only exists in my mind.

Damn. I wish I get to know you more. I wish I can hear you stories. I wish you could teach me something special.

Rest in peace. Grandpa.

p/s: Why do I feel that he's watching me? Oh no, I have been a very bad grandson.

Sincerely

Jesse Joy

437: Dog

2011-02-21T00:14:00.000+08:00

436: I Need Food Too

2011-02-20T17:26:00.000+08:00

435

2011-02-20T17:19:00.000+08:00

No, I don't play any pool or snooker, cause I'm bad at them.

Here's the full story:

If I can recall, it was Tuesday and I was late for class. After class was finished, all my class mates decided to go home and I was not ready to go home. I decided to have lunch at Mak Usu's and luckily, Amel tagged along. And even luckier, Zain saw me and approached me, told me that everyone is at Mak Long's. I became happy and after I finished my lunch, I went to Mak Long. Evrybody was there!

They planned to go bowling, I tagged a long. At Times Square we bowled.

Farith, Shahrul, Mia, JJ, Ann, Betty, Ayoe, Wawa and Attiq

Some were not in the picture. There were 14 of us that day and we divided into three teams.

Team 1: Ejat, Ayoe, Achap Ruslan and Faa

Team 2: Attiq, Ann, Mia, Nadia and Hady

Team 3: Shahrul, Deq Leen, JJ, Puteri, and Betty

We had so much fun. It was a great laugh. In the end, Team 2 got the highest score.

After the game.

Our day didn't end there and that take's us to the very first picture you see in this post. We went to play snooker. There weren't many pictures taken there. Snooler, pool or whatever you call it was quite fun. It was my first time playing.

I look forward to go out with you guys again.

I'm glad to have friends like you guys.

Cheers

Jesse Joy

434: Who Says I Can't Cook?

2011-02-20T16:26:00.001+08:00

The other day I went to Sogo to do some grocery shopping. I could shop for groceries near my place but since I'm at college and Sogo is just a train ride away, I say, why not?

I've convinced Ayoe to come with me and in return, I got her a chocolate bar. While shopping she said, 'can you cook?'. Of course I can.

My cooking may not be as good as those Junior Masterchefs (ppfffttt!) but I could cook a decent meal. So here's what I had for dinner the other night. Vegetables.

Actually, I don't know what's the name of the vegetable. It looks decent that's why I bought it.

First up, crush three cloves of garlic and chop them into small pieces.

Next ingredient, fresh tomatoes.

Then the vegetables. I think the name is kailan.

Chicken fillet.

Add a pinch of salt and that should do the trick. Gonna skip the cooking part because while stirring the vegetables, I was busy talking to my house mate on bad his day was. But let me share with you the steps of preparing this simple dish.

1. Heat up the pan and pour some oil.

2. Put the garlic and fry them until it looks good.

3. Add the chicken fillet and don't over fry them.

4. Add in the vegetables.

5. Tomatoes goes in last cause I don't want them to get mushy.

6. A pinch of salt and voila!

A simple green dish.

Sorry for the bad presentation. But, it's really delicious for a simple dish.

Sometimes I think, I should just study to become a chef since I like to cook. Next time, I'll challenge myself to prepare curry chicken!

Happy cooking.

Cheers

Jesse Joy

433: Sunyi

2011-02-17T22:40:00.000+08:00

cemburu aku mereka ketawa

aku yang di sini

dengan kerusi kosong di sebelahku

sunyi.

Written by,

Jesse Joy

432: Don't Date Me I'm a Jerk

2011-02-17T00:21:00.001+08:00

i won't give u flowers
or cium you on the cheeks
eat the chocolates myself
lebih - lebih lagi if its cadbury
i'll pretend to forget your birthday
wont even buy you a card on valentines
and dont celebrate our anniversary
i tak nak comments on that new baju you bought
matter of fact why should i
i'm not wearing it
but i'll give a nod though even though it's ugly
you want a teddy bear
belilah sendiri
you want that cute pink shoes
hey, my ringgit is only on me
we'll pay seperate bills at kfc
i dont want to hold your hand nanti sweaty
rather watch football and layan some porn in my phone
i wont reply your text or answer you call
cuz u'll make that manja voice
and i feel geli
still wanna date me?

Written By,

Jesse Joy

431: A Little Reunion With Two Friends

2011-02-16T22:43:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday, I went out with Pachara and Rafie. We went to Bukit Bintang. How did we all got the chance to meet?

Well, it started out like this, on the day before we went out, I was on my way home from Pavilion, riding the monorail and dropped down at Titiwangsa Monorail Station. It was here that I met Pachara. At first I wasn't really sure if that's even her. I stared at her just to make sure until she got on the monorail. I still stared at her when she's in the monorail. People who noticed might assume that I was perhaps a sex addict or something. My eyes were straight to her. She didn't notice me. Not until the monorail left. She looked out the window and saw we. We didn't get to talk, we only waved hands saying goodbye.

Later that night, I contacted Rafie on Facebook and told him what happened. The Pachara went online as well. I suggested that we all go out on Sunday and we did.

We planned to catch a movie but decided not to because the movies aren't that interesting. So we walked around Pavilion and head on to Sungei Wang. After we don't know what else to do, Pachara invited us swimming at her boyfriend's apartment.

Rafie at Ollie's balcony. The view was superb!

I swimmed with Pacahara. Rafie didn't. And Pachara's boyfriend was awesome. He was really nice.

And yes, that's Carlsberg in my hand.

That's how I look from behind. Not bad. LOL.

After Swimming

I really had an awesome time with both of them. I hope we'll be able to hang out next time.

Life at times can be very surprising and very unexpected. That's what happened to me. Life brought three friends back together. And I am so thankful with that. I hope to see all of my friends again soon.

Cheers,

Jesse Joy

430: Angkasa

2011-02-16T22:01:00.000+08:00

kalau kau lihat bintang di kejora meletup menjadi bunga - bunga api yang terang,

begitulah juga rasaku padamu.

akan aku bawa kamu menyusuri bima sakti menyorak riang, bertepuk gembira

kerana adanya kau dan aku.

kalau bulan dan matahari gerhananya hanya sebentar,

ku harap gernaha kita adalah untuk selamanya.

Written By,

Jesse Joy

429: Tidak Kesampaian

2011-02-16T21:48:00.000+08:00

terus terang.

walau aku sudah putus asa dengamu

aku masih gersangkan kamu

tapi mengapa bila aku sudah tidak mengharapkanmu

kau datang menyapa aku?

Written by,

Jesse Joy